It’s easy, sometimes, to believe that other people are responsible for your career development and progression. When you’re at a big firm, especially, there are lots of people dedicated to providing you with training, meeting with you on a semi-annual basis to review where things stand and coaching you to set goals, etc. However, even in those environments, the responsibility for ensuring that you have the career that you want still comes down to just you.
You have to implement the plans and work toward the goals and make sure that you are heading in a direction that fits you rather than just coasting along on other people’s dreams.
This is advice for myself just as much as all of you.
I recently got the opportunity to work closely with a senior lawyer in my area of practice as as an arbitration ‘side-kick’. No, that’s not the technical name for it, but really, the position is to be the arbitrator’s clerk. I’m taking notes, synthesizing information and discussing the day’s events with a lawyer who is not only very well-respected in the practice area, but throughout the bar. It’s a great opportunity and I am really fortunate to have been given this opportunity.
However, when the opportunity first came up, I was hesitant. Why? Because I am also really busy at work and have a husband and dog and, you know, life. It was easy to think, well if I just keep doing what I’m doing, I can still get to where I want to go.
Luckily, that thought hung around for only a split second before I realized what a golden opportunity this was and I jumped at it. I cleared my schedule as much as I could (of course people who are lawyers or friends with lawyers understand the necessity of all plans being subject to change) and I hunkered down to do the work that needed to be done. Both parties in the arbitration are represented by great senior counsel so I’m getting a front-row seat to some excellent advocacy as well as the decision-making side of things. As a litigator – things couldn’t be much better.
But, still, the fact that I hesitated bothered me. I mean, why would I have ever thought to pass up on an opportunity like this? And I soon realized what it was: because I didn’t have enough confidence in myself to ‘take a seat at the table’ as Sheryl Sandberg would say. It felt like I was putting myself out there as someone who was too keen for their own good. But, of course, that’s nonsense. I was afraid to be ambitious for myself because of some amorphous fear of what that might look like to other people.
We no longer live in a legal world where you should feel good about keeping your head down and not making waves. There are too many lawyers and too few jobs to pretend that you can do anything other than be that annoying kid who always raises his/her hand when the teacher asks a question (I admit, I was totally that kid, but I prefer to say that I was just precocious).
Anyway – I’m really glad that I put my hand up and took this opportunity. I’m learning more every day here than I did in the past three months since I started this new job. I am remembering what it feels like to be really, genuinely interested in something.
So, my advice to you is just do it. Put yourself out there. Take control of your career. Don’t rely on other people to direct you to where you need to go and don’t coast on someone else’s dream just because you can’t think of anything else to do.
Go after what you want.
Be ambitious. Be amazing.